How could I forget?

My head is exploding and there’s nothing you can do about it.
My world is crumbling and there’s nothing you can do about it.
I’m sorry I bothered you.
I’m sorry I reached out to you.
I know my crazy antics must get on your nerves.
And my insecurities must seem to great.
And I know you can’t fix it,
Or make things make sense again.
I know it is asking too much.
I feared asking too much.
And I did.
I am what I despise.
I am nothing more than a leech
Latching on to a body with no more blood to give.
I am the vampire, you my victim.
I’m sorry.
I’m so sorry.
What was I thinking?
Why would I think telling you this truth would help?
Why did I think I had the right to try and explain?
Why did I assume you’d want to ease my mind even when it seems uneasable?
I’m so stupid.
It’s laughable now
How easy it was to let the words fall from out of my mouth.
I feel so ashamed for it felt easy.
I am nothing more than a leech, a parasite.
How could I forget?

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